Human Frailty

I climbed in bed and cuddled up next to my daddy yesterday morning on his 70th birthday. As I curled my body around his weak, crippled, body wrecked with pain cause by arthritis I felt homesick. I had a pain in the center of my chest and my heart literally ached. I wanted to cry, I prayed (I've been praying for 12 years that the Lord would heal his body), I felt. I felt the Lord, He was there wrapped around the two of us holding us both in the palm of His hand.

I left yesterday and I thought about our humanity, how frail we are. We are decaying everyday, we are fragile, crush-able, breakable, BUT GOD. But God in His perfect love for us works out everything we go through for our good. 1 Corinthians 1:26-31 says: Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things- and the things that are not- to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God- that is, or righteousness, holiness and redemption. Therefore, as it is written: "Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord. 
And Romans 8:28 says: And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.


As I sat in the waiting room with Eli today for his eye appointment the Lord had a divine appointment for me. I met two different mama's that had children with syndrome's. One little girl has Angel-man's Syndrome and the other little girl has a syndrome that has not been diagnosed. God whispered to me, "Here are two of my precious children, weak, crippled, deaf, unable to breath on their own. By the worlds substandard they are broken, but to me they are perfect. I chose them to carry this cross for My glory." I got in the car and I saw, I saw the cross. He brought my eyes back to Him, to His pain, to His burden, to His human frailness. I saw once again the purpose of my life. He called me to walk the narrow path and carry my cross for His glory. If I take my eyes off of Him for even a second I will forget, I will forget the reason for suffering, for waiting, for pain. I will forget that broken is beautiful in His sight.

Dear Lord, Keep my eyes on you and your plan. Make me more aware of your Spirit and your will for the broken. Help me never to forget that I was called for You, to carry my cross to bring glory to you. Help me to always remember I cannot do this on my own, in my own strength for I am frail, damaged, broken. Dear Jesus empty me out and fill me with Your Spirit. I pray that as You speak through me that someone reading this will be touched by Your grace. I pray that someone will joy in their frailty and give themselves over to You. You have already bore our shame and our guilt, You have already paid in full the penalty for our sin. Help us all Lord walk the path laid out before us with gladness. In the sweet name of Jesus, AMEN.....

My Beautifully Broken Baby

One year ago tomorrow we stepped into Heaven Sent Children and stepped right into the will of God. We sat down requesting a girl, (I had pink, bows, and ruffles in my mind) but God in His perfect sovereignty had other plans for us. We discussed it further with Stephanie and decided it didn't matter we just wanted the child God had for our family. On April 17th I opened my e-mail and read these words, "Are you ready yet?" And there he was, Jaehyun Lee. I'm a nurse so I noticed some things right away that alarmed me to the fact he may have a syndrome of some sort. So Jeremy and I thought he most likely wasn't ours, I told Stephanie we would pray about it. I went out to the back porch and prayed, immediately God brought Isaiah 53:2 to my mind, "He has no form or comeliness; and when we see Him, there is no beauty that we should desire Him." Jesus Christ literally had no stately form, splendor, or beauty that anyone would desire to behold Him. I repented, cried, and told my husband what the Lord had spoken to me. He felt the same way. So we said yes!

We traveled to get Eli 6 months after looking at his referral picture which is now unheard of. I never lost my faith that we would get him soon, and God who knows all things knew Eli needed to come home. I haven't shared much of his private medical history and I still feel protective of his privacy when it comes to his diagnosis. But today he was diagnosed with a clotting disorder that will require him to receive platelets before any surgical procedure and he will require them if he has any trauma as well. This can be pretty scary when you are parenting a child that isn't scared of anything.

I just want to encourage all of you that are following the prompting of the Holy Spirit to adopt that broken babies are perfect babies. Eli has several physical abnormalities, but I can tell you that we don't even see the defects in his physical appearance. There are thousands of children out there that aren't the cutest, the smartest, or the most perfect, but God's children are perfect. And the orphaned child is God's child. Please consider the least of these.

You can visit www.rainbowkids.com to see thousands of waiting kids........they maybe waiting for YOU!
  

Provider

The Lord is my Provider!!!! We received a gift of $350.00 this morning from the people of The Crossing Church. We have also received donations through our Charity page. I pray that everyone who reads this blog or checks my fb will realize the AWESOMENESS of God.....it is only through Him that anything is possible...and through Him everything is possible!!!!

Prayer

PSALM 143:1

Lord, hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy; in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief. 

WAITING......

Please pray with me for all of the families that are waiting for their sweet children to come home from Korea. My heart is so heavy for them.

Splendor of Holiness

This week has been a week of praise and blessing. Eli turned 19 months old yesterday and he is changing so much. He loves his daddy and runs as fast as he can to meet him at the door after work. He starts yelling DaDa, DaDa and gives him lots of sweet kisses. He is way more comfortable than he was 4 months ago. He has cut 10 teeth, he's saying about 20 words, and he is running around everywhere. Lily was so excited a few nights ago because she got to change his diaper and rock him to sleep. We are so blessed to have him in our life. It is really neat to see him blossom and grow.

We found out today that our application to Giving Hope Rescue Mission was accepted....praise Jesus. This means we will be matched with our child/children in April when we travel to Haiti. The Lord is miraculously providing the money we need. He uses people I wouldn't expect and He blesses in the most amazing ways.

I have been pondering the verse in 1 Chronicles 16:28-30 all week. Ascribe to the Lord, all you families of nations, ascribe to the Lord glory and strength. Ascribe to the Lord the glory due his name; bring an offering and come before him. Worship the Lord in the splendor of his holiness. Tremble before him, all the earth! The world is firmly established; it cannot be moved.  (Genuine praise also involves ascribing glory to God. This means that we give credit where credit is due. Remember this in your worship-give God all the glory. NIV)


Everything we do in this life has a purpose and a reason and we have a choice to glorify God with our life or not. Our worship is not just the lifting of our hands in praise, but it is loving and serving one another. I look around and I see so many opportunities to be the hands and feet of Jesus. And I hear A LOT, "you can't save everyone Kimberly." I might not be able to rescue every orphaned child in the world or feed every hungry person, but I can assure you there is MUCH to be done for the Kingdom of God. WE must worship the Lord in the splendor of holiness. What is holy? Holy is when you reach out to the person that doesn't look like you, the person that may even stink, the child that doesn't have a mother and father, the neighbor that is right next door to you.

I implore you to please consider your life. What is important to you? What is elevated in your life? The Bible says: we must decrease so that He (Jesus) might increase. Are you serving, are you ministering, are you decreasing and sacrificing for the Kingdom of God? May we all fall on our knees and behold His majesty and adore the splendor of Him.

I am blessed beyond measure in this life and I must share with others what God has done for me for His glory.

The Visible Church

I experienced the hands and feet of Christ this morning at church. We as a society have become so complacent in our church services, cold and indifferent to the working of the Holy Spirit of God. While reading A.W. Tozer and listening to many other pastors speak about the visible Church I began to think about what this meant. We have very little time on this round ball we call earth to make a difference in the Church and in the world, but it seems to me the Church as a whole is doing very little. We get up on Sunday and dress in our very best, head out the door, and sit stagnant in a pew for 2 hours maybe more. We soak up the word of God and it ends there. We leave and go about our everyday lives unchanged, untouched by the majesty of a Holy God. BUT today I was a part of the visible Church. We went to The Crossing and Jeremy stood up and shared what the Lord is doing in our lives and our desire to bring our child home from Haiti. Then my sweet friend Rachel stood before the congregation with a precious gift for us. She had stayed up all night preparing a big jug for us to collect money for our adoption. She had taken her time and wrapped it with colorful paper to represent our family rainbow. Then the message was preached and one by one people began to give. After Lily gave her savings the total was $147.44. In that small church I experienced true worship this morning. Not the worship of religion, but the worship of God. These people were loving us the way the Bible commands us to love. It wasn't about receiving a certain amount of tithe, or raising your hands to a certain song, it was Holy. Christ was represented at the little, run down, white church across from Wal-mart. God is not contained in buildings made with human hands, but He dwells in the hearts of His people. I'm so thankful He is showing Himself in such a mighty way.....to Him be the Glory!!!!!

P.S. The purpose of my blog is to glorify God and that is my only purpose!!!!